las 2 daes..
smthg bad hapend to me..
n it hapend to me early in e am,even b4 i went out frm hse 4 wrk..
it startd at 0600hrs..
1st vomiting, n continuously soon after i reachd wrk..
e toilet was being my 2nd 'wrking place' on dat am..
i didnt help my colleagues to do e normal routines..
i kept going in n out of e toilet..
became more weaker s time passes by..
my eyes was heating up wenever i shut it..
i wanna go hm,but i didnt want to replace it on sat..
so i carry on till e time ends..
alhamdulillah..
aunt told me dat i didnt ate my meal well..
n got gastric..
hmm..
aku eh tk mkn betol?
biar btol?

more probs is adding in me esp..
i felt like im e middle prsn btwn e both of u..
if u tink u were e onli 1 hu been questions by aunt n cous..
u r wrong!
super duper wrong!
aunt calld me wen im wrking..
she nvr calld me b4 at those time, except if mom w me..
she askd me y n wat hapend..
m i suppose to keep quiet?
do u tink its easy for me to ans their questions?
im so sick sometimes too..
do u noe dat?
im e type of prsn hu is so difficult to let tings out in me..
hw m i suppose to do dat?
i dnt even noe wer n hw to start..
if i wanna talk tings out w u, im scared dat u will b disspointd in me..
i tink abt ur feelings 1st rather den i tink abt myself..
do u tink im being selfish in dis matter?

hapi bdae mak yg ke ehem2..
smoga dipanjangkn umur dan dimurahkan rezeki..
ydae was her big dae..
so w an unplanned plan, we went to eat at popeyes..
at t3..
it was like finally dat i ate at popeyes..
wat i love e most was e FRIES..
agree?
hehe..

smthg hapend at wrk todae..
4 ppl was assigned in 1 cubicle todae..
so deywent seperate ways to help e others..
so me n ummirah stayd in e cubicle..
normal routine in e am..
den it hapend after e break..
1 of e patient had a fast pulse..
dat was like 170-180 bpm..
can u imagine dat?
it was being notified by e daughter..
i told e staff nurse abt it..
checkd bp, it was freaking low..
u can get it at 75/57..
n its nt a joke k..
me n ummirah was like rushing here n der..
patient was needed to send to m.i.c.u..
i cnt help up in preparing e transferring s e bleed didnt stop..
so i actuali went dwn w my hand pressing against e off plugged area..
n being squeezed e lift door etc..
e doc didnt hv e license to push e bed..
haha..
n we nearly hit a deceased trolley near e counter..
hehe..

dear sis,

alhamdulillah, im glad to find out dat u hv someone in life, apart frm the HIM n family members. even my besties noe abt him cos both stayed at e same blk n e dad is e bilal in e mosque. n e youngest sibling is my senior, the handsome drummer. haha. wat a small world eh?

but sometimes, or usuali, it gets me irritated w ur behaviour. js dnt understand abt it. ders dis part, u were so lazy to do aniting, everyting dats in front of u. wen u got a call, u were awake immediately, n get to dress to meet him up. wats e pt of u bringing ur wrk back hm den? u told parents dat u hv lots of tings to settle, but in e end, u r lazying on e bed, talking on e fon.

didnt get to talk w him dat much at wrk place? wanna talk w him 24/7 ke? remember wat u told me b4 dis? i noe, if i askd u again, u will denied it, dnt u? u scold me cos im irritating. yes, indeed i m. i noe my character. but den, do u hv any other place to talk other den e rm? im asleep at dat time of moment n u were talking. i did e same too, i admit. but i did go off or even put dwn e fon. hw abt u?

ders dis part u r defending him so much, which i noe its nt even true. an unknown no calld me wen i hv a hari raya outing w frens. wat do u xpect me to do? to gv a sweet tone of voice to an unknown no? for sure, u said dat im so being frenly. i was at my normal tone. i dnt even noe wat he told u. n u told me dat sentence is frm u. gosh!

i dnt even noe wat to sae to u, sis. hope wat u r doing rght nw, will benefit u in e future. i cnt sae aniting oredi. so if aniting dat is related to him, go straight to parents n talk to dem. dnt make me e middle prsn to pass e msg to dem. u r big enough to do it.

i love u sis.

ur sis,
azi